keeping up:moving on
Monday, May 30, 20053:13 AM
see through my eyes
take a good look inside
all the tears that i cried
wishing to be the one by your side
hopes of us long died
when i found i couln't turn the tide
now im fallen
pieces broken
my heart you've stolen
into me reality's shaken
i had us totally mistaken
but im keeping up, moving on
i've learnt how to be strong
no point crying till the break of dawn
when all i can do
and should do
is keep moving on
and prove to you that you're wrong
yes, for myself i've gotta be strong
covering up the pain within
wear a mask; it's either sink or swim
the path's now all dim
im walking life on eggshells thin
regretting's a sin
but i should've never let you in
so lets talk consequence
when you play me with your silence
don't say there's no difference
don't try to blink out my existence
so for myself
im keeping up, moving on
i've learnt how to be strong
no point crying till the break of dawn
when all i can do
and should do
is move on
and prove that you're wrong
so im moving on, staying strong
**[erm... to be continued when i get back my brain cells to complete this]**Labels: depressed, literature, puppy love, teenage life
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-Behind These Hazel Eyes-
Thursday, May 26, 20055:19 AM
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes...
-Kelly Clarkson-Labels: Behind These Hazel Eyes, Kelly Clarkson, song lyrics
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oooooooo.... o.O''
Tuesday, May 24, 20055:51 AM
oh no... i think life would be so much easier without report cards and exams... sighs... imma sad sad sad human bean living on this earth... could someone be kind enough to take me out for some watering and sunshine? cos the exams and its results are killing me le... hahax man this june holiday's gonna suck big time... excuse my early stages of verbal diarrhoea... sighs...Labels: depressed, exams, stress, teenage life
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messed
5:35 AM
it hurts to see to you
even more to sit beside you
knowing i can't have you
just rips my heart in two
are you that clueless
or maybe you just couldn't careless
the pain inside is endless
im already becoming senseless
stop the pulling and pushing
can't you hear me screaming
you're this so confusing
my emotions are overflowing
i guess you'll remain just where you are
not knowing who loved you from afar
i hope that'll leave a scar
on you, my shining star
you've got me messed
with your name on my desk
i've got to confess
you're a disaster at its best
you're my best nightmare
i love your confused stare
but do you even care
whether or not my spirit's there?
everytime you say goodbye
i wanna break down and cry
but i wonder if the tears that fall
are worthy of you at all
don't you know im just pretending
that im just hiding
these tears that i cry
behind these chocolate eyes
i need my emancipation
from this meaningless infatuation
im headed in no direction
with you as my source of inspiration
im sorry honey if i've put this too harshly
but lately you've been making me crazy
push me far away then pull me close to you
make up your mind now, whatcha gonna do?
creeping on the walls
waiting for your call
its a wonder i don't feel like a fool
when i scream your name out in school
the rain's beating down on my hair
then suddenly whipsers of my name fill the air
now when everything replays in full
maybe i was the one, who didn't have a clue...Labels: confusion, depressed, literature, puppy love, teenage life
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untitled
Saturday, May 21, 20056:05 AM
life was unwilling
to let me live
death forbid me
to pass her gates
so here i am
stranded
in between
realmsLabels: depressed, short literature, teenage life
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MBTF
5:46 AM
sighs yes yes... imma sad human living on this earth...
::math I:: 16/40
::math II:: 11/50
grandtotal: 27/90
::chem I:: 17/?
::chem II:: 31/?
grandtotal: 48/70
::bio I:: 14/?
::bio II:: 34.5/?
grandtotal: 48.5/70
::eng II:: 34/50
(eng I ain't back... dunno if it's coming back even...)Labels: exams, teenage life
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broken
Thursday, May 05, 20054:43 AM
phantoms
sleeping in my soul
stir, rise, awake
breathe down
through this cold
let me wake with you
unfurl my wings
let me soar
dreams of freedom
inside roar
but without you
your presence
ther's nothing i can do
leave me
break my world in two
reach out
grope for your spirit
but all i feel
is damp air
everything's turned rancid
why did you leave me
here to drown
why did you leave me
here to be lost
why did you leave me
here to fall hopelessly in love with you?
senseless
blankly wondering
hoping
to find you hand
but when i look
you're nowhere near
you're holding someone else
now everything's so clear
im not wanted
im not needed
your presence was the only thing
i ever pleaded
shadows curl
winds blow
raindrops whirl
emotions within
overflow
in this storm
i walk alone
sky like ebony
all forlorn
you're not here
you never were
my absence
would never kill you
like it did me
im still hoping
im still praying
my spirit would find you
because i miss you
even in death...Labels: depressed, literature, puppy love, teenage life
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