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when i first stumbled on this video on youtube, i just had to find out who she was and what the heck happened to her. i sure as heck didn't know who she was but i just had to find out. she struck me as a very beautifulandfriendlyperson who was well-loved by the people around her. her story broke my heart and made me cry. apparently (from what i read) she was 17 when she was murdered, and ironically she wasonly 6 days away from her 18th birthday. six days. that's less than a week for crying out loud! and the murderer didn't even know her! she was stabbedin the chest while cleaning a table on her shift at macdonalds. a few hours later, she was pronounceddead. it's so sad and unfair.
her story reminds me of how fragilehuman lives are and it scares me. always tell those around you how thankfulyou are to have come to know them and how much you appreciate them. a dead man cannot read his epitaph nor hear his eulogies, so take the chance to tell them you love and appreciate them now. don't restrain praise or honest words in you heart. at least if they do go unexpectedly (which we pray won't happen), they'll go knowing that you loved them and you'll have less regrets.
to the sviderskys and those who know her, be strong. im sure she's looking down from heaven with love in her eyes for you guys. she's alive and well in your hearts. her story moved the world and touched many lives, even those who didn't know her personally.
hahax so fun i went to fe honey's parents' cafe at biopolis to celebrate her SWEETSIXTEEN birthday yesterday =] hahax it was so cool man...
regpranked her by saying she had exams on thurs 21 and couldn't make it till about 6pm... but... the thing is... she didnt! lols and fe didnt know! hahax so yeahs me and fe's friends and matt knew about it except her! well it was supposed to be a surprise after all like duh~
yeahs and the second prank was the candles... see reg and i bought self-relighting candles behind fe's back, and told her parents to plant them on her cake. so again everyone knew about it even her parents... except her... so thats like 2 pranks for reg & 1 for me boo =[
in any case i was the only lucky duck with no school that day (with the exception of reg but then again she aint in secondary sch no more =/) so that meant i could practically wear whatever i wanted. but since i couldn't decide what to wear... i wore my SCHOOL UNIFORM lols!!! its like im given a chance to NOT wear the uniform and i just HAVE to wear it out. to a PARTY/CELEBRATION lols. im beyond lamefied... oh well since just about everyone was coming from school and wearing their school uniforms, i thought why not join in the bandwagon? =] so i did... and man did i ever funk up the school uniform. like seriously. i think i flouted like nearly 10 school rules all at once???
1. i tied my hair up into 2 pony tails. but i only tied up half my head of hair... the rest were like flying all over the place like erm... some big mess? but i looked okayy la =] 2. i wore like dangling earrings. hahax estimated length: about 5 cm+? lols yeahs thats how much i flouted the rules. and openly too... 3. i wore the ring ____ gave me plus this other rocker bracelet thingie i bought from the philippines out with the uniform. and its not like they're tiny either. the ring's so shiny and the bracelet's kinda thick and boldly black, making them pretty hard to miss. 4. i couldn't help it but i just HAD to wear wonderfully colourful ankle socks out; they're so pretty lols. and they look so much nicer =] 5. i wore my fave sport shoes out which i bought from city square lols. like duh why would i wanna wear my crummy old school shoes there right? well i can't remember the rest so i'll stop here on the rule-flouting. i would've taken a pic but if anyone saw it and reported it to my school i'd be so toast lols so yeahs im not gonna take that chance. besides why would i wanna foul my blog with pics of my school's kindergarten-like logo? like i dont see it enough already -.-''
hahax so yeahs imagine me going out like that in public on the train on the way to buona vista its like so ohmytian lols. so i used matt's social studies notes which i was gonna pass to him to cover up my school logo on the train. you know just in case i get reported for flouting school rules by people who have no better life out there than to stare at the various uniforms of students -.-'' they obviously have some form of obsessive-compulsive behaviour of some sort...
yeahs at the buona vista station matt and i were like hunting for fe and her friends and reg but there was like nobody there! so we just hung around the place waiting for some familiar face to show up and help get us to biopolis. and just the other night fe told me she'd be at the station! =[ so anyways reg appeared and was on the phone with one of fe's friends. it was so funny can? well first of all she was wearing this funny shirt (okay so i found it funny) and she was trying to take directions from fe's friend. thing is we (matt and i trailed her) ended up running all over the station lols... cos fe's friend was saying something about a 7-eleven store and reg ended up running all over the place looking for it (unfortunately it was at the biopolis not the station -.-''). so anyways we walked (what the... got shuttle bus dont wanna take -.-'') to biopolis and reg told me to ''look out for a group of 5 to 6 girls in blue pinafores and white blouses. they are highly dangerous...'' hahax i didn't know whether to buy it or not but i did just in case =]
yeahs so we met 2 of fe's friends at a bus station and started planning on how to get fe back to the cafe (cos her other friends had taken her out for a 'walk') cos reg, the surprise of the day, would be sitting there waiting for her lols... hahax well apparently when fe saw reg sitting there she was kinda reluctant to go inside the cafe i dunno why... the other friends hoarded in and were like discussing were to sit (typical girl fashion la im guilty of it too =]) fe and her dad asked how come reg appeared outta nowhere and reg explained her prank lols... and poor uncle ian! he was like the only chef there (i think) and had to cook for 11 of us! (12 if you count sam the waiter lols) and yeah we kept making fun of sam and kept calling him ''waiter~!'' i know we're such meanies lols...
so anyways we took like lotsa photos (her friends mainly) here and there... so sad my camera died on me =[ but i'll get the photos from either fe or her friends i guess boo =[ and the food there was great yup yupps =] i broke my record of eating philly's cheesesteak all the time yay!
oh no i accidentally covered kelly's face! >.< lols ="]" color="#33cc00">fe =] hmmm maybe i should put the card here...
the simple yet neat layout of savoury blise =]
yeah and fe's friends were like so super funny... one girl asked her friend beside her to sing a song and that friend just turned to her with this stoned expression and deadpanned ''do i look like a jukebox to you?'' then she pointed to her right shoulder ''insert quarter here.'' lols it was so funny man =] and yes the food rocks hahax i can't stop raving over it... and its really healthy too cos uncle ian uses olive oil to cook =] so health conscious eh...
yeahs and fe kept telling everyone that there was this 'surprise' for us but since she told me and reg on sunday we already knew it in advance: a pinata. and sam made it himself. never knew he was sucha nice guy lols... *shocked* and watching fe whack the pinata was really funny... her friends were going like ''imagine it's this teacher!'' and ''no no it's this teacher! you hate her right???'' hahax eventually sam ended up whacking the pinata like crazy and resorted to tearing it open lols cos it wouldn't burst =] boy it was candy galore =] (heard he took 3 days & 2 nights to finish it o.O)
oh yes the cake how could i not mention the cake? i'd be crazy if i don't mention it lols... uncle ian very nicely remembered to put the relighting candles on fe's cake and everyone was giggling away as we asked her to make a wish and blow out the candles... the candles were giving out sparks and fe was like ''wait why are the candles sparkling? why like that?'' and we just made her blow them out. which she of course failed to la duh =] halfway through she asked us to help her but we like ''no no its your cake la'' =] hehex we're so mean =] finally we put them out by dumping them into a glass of water... and yes it was the cake that i so love! haven't eaten it since my 14th birthday~ hahax should've eaten more of it but i was really full la =[ and reg was like on some crazy high lols... must be the cake and coffee sweets hehex =]
make a wish for world peace! =]
my dear retarded reg... don't ask where she got the props from -.-''
hahax and after fe's friends left, sam, fe, reg, me and matt piled into the backseat of fe's parents' car (im still amazed it could actually move) with me sitting on reg's lap lols... she was like some kinda booster seat-cum-seat belt thingie to me =] her parents dropped us off at clementi central where we did like walking around and getting even more high... now reg has some crazy obsession over guinea pigs and wants to buy one but fe and i are so discouraging her from that... imagine her with a pet guinea pig *freaks* and yeahs she did henna on her hand too lols that crazy girl... and i bought another abercrombie and fitch shirt again hahax can't help it i like the material =]
reg's very interesting henna... she almost made fe and me to that too...
and as usual i went home late... an hour late to be exact... my parents had given me like 4 missed calls and 2 text messages and i was kinda afraid to pick up at first cos i thought they were out to scold me or something but nooooo... it was... regarding.. the... *tadaa* GOLDFISH -.-'' they'd called and texted me to remind me to feed the fish seaweed when i came home cos they went out for dinner that night... zzz scare me for nothing -.-''
and when my parents came home (way after me) they interrogated me =[ over whether uncle ian accepted payment for the food from us, which he didnt... so i got a scolding lor ='[ cos i'd planned to stick the cash all over the cafe in case they didnt accept it... sad thing was i forgot to bring sticky tape ='[ and for that i got a scolding ='[ zzz...
anyways i had a great time and fe's finally 16! like me! lols =] despite the scolding i got later at home, it still rocked =] love ya fe honey =] hope you like the 'present' i gave you <3
hello my new name in 4e117o6 and im currently serving a 4 year prison sentence in christchurch prison... so sad on saturday i was serving CWO in the art studio for who-knows-how-long... and the worst thing is they make us wear lies on the uniforms like ''We Love CHR!''... sighs what did i do wrong to get this? okay lammee but i was thinking of this during art on sat... hahax okayys this is a kinda postponed post... lols i love wordplay dontcha? =] yeahs so anyways i dragged myself outta my precious bed to go for art cos we were supposed to hand in our art coursework on that day... but obviously almost noone was finished by then... so we were kept prisoner there to finish up as much as possible =[ hahax yeahs n i dragged dear ol' tina down too so i wouldn't be alone =] need proof?
no imnot pointing my middlefinger at tina!!! >.< msging ____ while taking the pic =]
mmm 4gb ipod...i want! wonder howshe does that lols =]
and let me tell you i think i have a new stalker called tina hahax... she's crazy! keep on taking pics of me... thanks ar by the way... i feel so honoured getting photographed by you HAHAX =] need more proof?
me & cs studying at the library cafe during sept hols. that's yiwen's super-extra middlefinger -.-''
hahax i was eating a pockystick =] look at our serious expressions: we were discussing math hehex... tina says i look like im dressed to go dancing... really meh?
look at this super lame-o... she's wearing my new hoodie-jacket... kouper lols =]
im not a born entertainer so don't expect me to entertain your every whim and fancy and stop expecting it from me i listen to my mp3 at high decibels to shut outyournoise by the way it gives me terrible headaches that don't stop and i don't need if you happen to be wondering stop thinking what's wrong with me if you can't find much of a solution from scrutinizing a person then maybe its time to scrutinize yourself i understand that screaming and shouting is a very liberating thing but for goodness sakes' find a proper location to do that like the rooftop of some old building or a carpark not at HOME what if people think that child abuse is going on at our home? or consider it noise pollution? and wondefully call up the police? that might happen one fine day you know and goodness you know you're in bad health you know why? its not because of age really you still have a pretty long way to go to get that stage its because of your screaming and shouting and inability to control your anger much as you find screaming and shouting at the kids and me a fun way to scare us and tame us its just aggravatingyour ownnot-so-good conditioned health so don't go around saying that we're causing you stress and stuff you're the one who lets it get to you and you let it out the wrong way yeah so you're starting to work out and watch your diet now so? its not just the physical part its also the psychological part that contributes to yourhealth in case you didn't know not only is blowing your top off constantly bad for you its bad for the environment too like there isn't enough noise pollution in this world let alone singapore and you just have to add to it you not just add to it but you add to it at the wrong time of the day screaming and shouting at night?? like hello you think people can't hear you??? it practically echoes throughout the entire level and neighbourhood! spare a thought for those poor souls who wanna kick back and unwind after a long day's work in peace by the way they want to relax quietly no need for yourear-grating noise so there you go another reason to stop screaming and shouting you'll wake the silence of the night and you tell me you're learning to control your temper if you're learning anger management i must be the master of it venting your anger out at your kids is so not the way about it i knew it at 12 or younger please have you thought that you might psychologicallyscar the kids? nah doubt so im living proof and thats not even enough for you even after the chiding you got you say i don't listen to good advice and chidings guess i know now where i got that from and stop whacking the kids too it won't work when you whack someone for making mistakes in their homework it doesn't help it may help to make the person focus but if the person really doesn't know then what's the point in punishment? punishing someone for not knowing something or not being able to understand something is so pointless you might as well go scold and punish all the idiots you think are out there in the world just because they're not as smart as you expect them to be stop asking for pity please don't make yourself seem so pitiful its weird gather yourself up and do some reflection stop balancing yourself on 2 sides of a balance its not working a psycho non-stop screamer on one side a crying wallower on the other its just too weird so stop it and stop 'projecting your voice' all over the house its not all that wonderful to hear you know and neither is it good for yourhealth for for the sake of the family, the neighbourhood, yourhealth and yourself quit the screaming/yelling/shouting/voice-raising/noise-making
what you hold to now will come to light in the face of death.
think about it.you may say that you love a person now, but when someone holds you at gunpoint and asks you if you would die for that someone, would you?in the face of death, what would it be: your virtues, beliefs, principles, perspective, or, your life?
blehhs today is like a badbadbadbadbadbad day for me... no don't be deceived by the seemingly cheerful colours i used to colour the 'bads'... i am seriously in a super mood today =[ eh i think i put the wrong face there... rarhs i dunno how to put the angry one la...
hmmm lets see... first up i lost my ez link card how wonderful right? yeahs n i have no idea how i lost it... there's no way i put it in my bag cos it was in my pocket when i boarded the 913 bus... i even used it on the bus please... but when i went on the 901 bus i realised my pocket was empty n yeah thats when everything went wrong... rarhs thank goodness camel n hareni were on the bus so they sorta spared me some money for the bus fare (i forgot to bring my wallet out)... but its so sad... my pretty neoprints, consession pass n mcdonalds points are all GONE. wheh :'(
then on the bus i started getting this splitting headache which made me wanna throw up everywhere... stupid thing...
then that stupid headache sorta like blocked up my thinking so i think im gonna totally flunk my geog mock now... i actually wanted to hurl all over the mock paper... but heheh i didnt use a cheat sheet see im so honest =] whats the point in doing a mock with a cheat sheet? its like testing you on how much you've copied from the textbook -.-''
after the test i went to look for ms sharifah to take back my other art board to paint at home... n she wasn't around!!! oh why oh why... just when i need to chiong to do my art, she aint around... oh yeah n my dear bro siu long forgot to photocopy the art prelim question paper for me... he'd better remember to type it for me cos my life depends on him now =[
yeah so after i tried looking for ms sharifah but to no avail, cheesan told me that there was a bb camp going on in sch now... gosh i so happie n excited to see my eye candy la =] but sadly, after like 5-10 mins of standing around, i didnt even get the chance to see his back =[ sucky day...
so fine i left sch in a sad state... then i dunno why but i just started laughing... for absolutely no reason for 15 mins... just to cheer myself up again i guess... but cheesan said i was crazy n that she didnt know me =[ meanie... i was planning on going to the bus interchange to make a report then call n see if my dad could send me home but NOOOO... he said he couldn't drive the car out now (when i went home i knew why... anyone with a dim bulb could've guessed...) so i had to borrow MORE money from cheesan to pay the bus fare home =[ think i owe her more that a buck now...
yeah so anyways for now i'll have to wait n see if the people at the bus interchange n train station can find my card... if not i'll have to get a dumb replacement at some funny stations =[ boo i don't want la... n yeah 2 people made my day despite all this crap... yeah cheesan is definitely one of them... she waited for me to finish the mock (well since drey left i guess its the only reason why she'd wait for me right lols=]), put up with my crap n insane laughter, spared me cash for the bus fare n let me koup one of the seaweed chicken =] fine i shall say this MUMMY YOU ROCK =] hahax but i diamond la lols =] n yeah another is someone who was so nice n sweet to offer to take me home from woodlands even though he was like on the train from yio chu kang on the way home from a tiring parade rehearsal... yeahs just wanna say YOU ROCK TOO <3 color="#000000">gonna like take a nap now cos the headache's screwing my brains up n the noise my parents are making are just adding on to the headache... ugh anyways gotta get going... fishy stuff about the fish tank going on in my house now -.-'' P.S:(oh yeah my dad was dealing with the fish tank n the plants in it... thats why he couldn't fetch me home from causeway point -.-'')