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justa normalgirl
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would crave for [tequilasunrise] or [anyfruitycocktail] in times of depression or upsetness
or craftwork & literature, depending
erratic and admitting it :p
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sprees of silliness musicology
chocoholic. BIG TIME
DONUTSSS!!!
appley pies~ swing swings dance dance
photographica
laughter loving
makeup-o-matic
love seeking no more
give it some time to load. toggle around with the buttons, that might actually help the loading process (and your boredom). turn up your speakers. if you're not gonna stay here for my entries, im pretty sure you will, for the music :D and the fortune cookie too :p
when i first stumbled on this video on youtube, i just had to find out who she was and what the heck happened to her. i sure as heck didn't know who she was but i just had to find out. she struck me as a very beautifulandfriendlyperson who was well-loved by the people around her. her story broke my heart and made me cry. apparently (from what i read) she was 17 when she was murdered, and ironically she wasonly 6 days away from her 18th birthday. six days. that's less than a week for crying out loud! and the murderer didn't even know her! she was stabbedin the chest while cleaning a table on her shift at macdonalds. a few hours later, she was pronounceddead. it's so sad and unfair.
her story reminds me of how fragilehuman lives are and it scares me. always tell those around you how thankfulyou are to have come to know them and how much you appreciate them. a dead man cannot read his epitaph nor hear his eulogies, so take the chance to tell them you love and appreciate them now. don't restrain praise or honest words in you heart. at least if they do go unexpectedly (which we pray won't happen), they'll go knowing that you loved them and you'll have less regrets.
to the sviderskys and those who know her, be strong. im sure she's looking down from heaven with love in her eyes for you guys. she's alive and well in your hearts. her story moved the world and touched many lives, even those who didn't know her personally.
what you hold to now will come to light in the face of death.
think about it.you may say that you love a person now, but when someone holds you at gunpoint and asks you if you would die for that someone, would you?in the face of death, what would it be: your virtues, beliefs, principles, perspective, or, your life?
to you, who is in Heaven now. i know you're busy worshipping the Lord in Heaven right now, but i pray that you'll have some time to read this letter.
how's it Heaven? im sorry i couldn't be there at your final months, nor could my family. please don't blame them; it was because of me that we couldn't go back to Edmonton. Round about two months before you left, you were calling to see everyone. i never thought you'd be more right. my family and i couldn't go back as i had to sit for my exams. my family had planned to so many trips to go back, but they got all scrapped, because it was either too near my exam dates or i had something going on. don't hold it against us.
how was it in the final moments? it must have been brutal pain, to have to have both legs amputated to the knees. i didn't know you had diabetes, some great granddaughter i am. im sorry i wasn't able to speak to you that year when i went back in 2003. you must have been so disappointed. till now, i still can't figure out what dialect you were speaking to me in. but i remember you pointing at me, asking aunty what my name was. "Ha Leng" as you called me from that day on, and for my whole stay. ok so it was weird, but i wonder what was running through your mind, everytime sarah and levina could speak to you, whereas all i could do was stand helplessly at one side, watching everything, unable to communicate with you. at the most, i would just stand there and smile at you.
my mum told me that you were a strong independent lady, a strong christian, especially for someone who's over 90. your passing came as a great shock, but then again im glad for you. free from pain, away from the bondages of the world, to meet our Maker. it must be so wonderful. but don't forget there's one girl here who regrets many things, especially not being able to be there when you asked to see everyone you knew.
