my hope for you
Friday, November 21, 20085:26 PM
i hope that you'll continue to perservere in life,
overcoming obstacles with your strong will.
i hope that you'll speak your mind,
and not keep to yourself all the time.
i hope you'll continue to be the outstanding individual that you are,
and not simply go with the crowd.
i hope you'll continue to be that caring soul i know,
and not turn cold towards the world and life.
i hope you'll think through carefully before making decisions,
and never be rash and unthoughtful.
i especially hope that blessings will light your way
and that perhaps we'll get to meet another day.Labels: love
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happy (turkeyless) thanksgiving!
Monday, October 13, 200812:18 PM
its REALLY late to say this, but happy thanksgiving everyone! and stop eating turkeys for thanksgiving la... very nice to eat meh..? i find the taste of turkey meat very unusual, and i dont mean unusual like nice/exotic unusual. i mean like damn weird/not nice unusual. seriously. i remember having my first try of it last year, during thanksgiving too. i took quite a lot of it (cos the damn gravy smelled so deceivingly good), and bam! that was one of the worst dishes that dinner :/
turkey has this weird chemical-ish aftertaste to me, like how mutton does. (mutton curry eaters might be able to relate!) and not sian meh? every thanksgiving eat turkey... i would get kinda bored of it!
besides, can you really bear to eat something that used to look like this when it was younger?
betcha cant now, after seeing these :D btw, pictures are from cuteoverload.com. TOO AH-DORA-BUHLS! :D oh no now im speaking C.O language too :x
sooo anyways, interesting thanksgiving i've had so far. no turkey, no meeting up with parents' university friends, no (weird) church parties... blah blah. but, i've had other things this thanksgiving.
went to the Falls on saturday (yes Niagara Falls, you), broke up with boyfriend, 24 hours later we got back together again, kissed a girl in church, watched (Jackie Chan) movies every night, got hooked on cuteoverload.com, got my period (oh gosh), tried putting on a tampon (for the 4th time) and succeeding (yay!)... aiyoh so many things... so lets just go by the order i typed.
after like 2months+ of begging and pleading and hinting to my parents, we finally went to Niagara. like finally! happy dee doo :] how can one live in Canada and not go see what it's famous for, right? unfortunately we didnt get do and see and much as we hoped cos my parents bought like package tours -___-" so we had to go to those 4 tourist hot spots or else it'd be a waste of money blehhhhh. so constrained i tell you. it fet more like we were doing the amazing race rather than going on a tour :/ but all the same, Niagara didnt fail to stun and wow. pictures will be coming up soon in another entry. and i am so amazed that my camera is still functioning okay after getting continually sprayed by the mists from the Falls! *pats the faithful camera* oooh oooh and i bought a First Nation necklace from there too (well from a souvenir shop la okay?)
my parents kinda think im crazy cos im so obsessed about First Nation things. there's something so stirring about them, something that draws me to it. African cultures, Australian aboriginals, South American tribes... yeah you name them, and i'll tell you i've heard of them before and i have some interest in them. sometimes i actually wished that part of my heritage was First Nation. yes yes i am AWARE that im weird, thankyou very much. anyways the necklace i bought was one with a turtle pendant. for one, i like turtles *squeals* and for another, it's interesting what the turtle meant to the First Nation peoples.
The Turtle:
The Turtle symbolizes Mother Earth. Many North American Indians call the continent of North America, Turtle Island. Once there was only water and no place for people and animals to live. Tradition says Mother Earth was created on the back of the Turtle. The Turtle made a great sacrifice and let everyone come and live on her back. Turtle medicine conveys the ability to live life and conduct yourself in a protected and safe way. If a Turtle has come to you it may be saying that you need to protect yourself from people and events that seek to throw you off balance and make you vulnerable. Because of the Turtle's slow inert movement, the Turtle also symbolizes patience and intelligence. Take your time, be patient and make wise decisions.
cool or not? yes yes? i see fellow turtle lovers nodding their heads in profuse agreement :D and speaking of wise decisions, i think i made a pretty dumb one on saturday.
yes my boyfriend and i broke up for like 24hours. im not going to go through the sequence of events that led to the breaking point (haha), but the 24hours of singlehood was actually really painful. i was actually hoping that neither of us meant it, because i've always relied on him heavily, and breaking up would've well, driven me crazy had it been permanent. i talked to 2 guy friends, who helped try to cheer me up (you know who you are). later i talked with boyfriend and we both realized we/i didnt mean it at all. it was just mentioned out of anger and frustration. we're both taking some time out, giving each other a week off (no calls & text messages), and after that things will go back to the regular mushy-mushy stuff :] whew so glad it's all worked out! i was kinda worried that he would kill my babies (baby terrapins that i left in his care) out of spite, even though im sure he's not that kind of guy :x
ummm yeah i kissed a girl, namely Melody Chang. and guess where the dirty deed took place? in church. why the heck? for camwhoring sakes' :D dont believe me? here's zee proof:
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i kissed a girl and i liked it.
but no i am not lesbian. it was purely for fun. but it did feel a lil weird cos it was my first time kissing another girl on the lips haha! in anycase, i am loving this picture! so hot, sexy and attention-grabbing, no? (i love attention, deal with it)
oh yeah. on friday after school ended, i decided to borrow some movies from the school/public library to watch over the long weekend. you know, chill a bit. earlier on during my spare, i spotted a Rush Hour 3 dvd. why i didnt borrow it immediately, i dont know. but when i went back after school, it was gone! *devastated* but i managed to find Shanghai Knights and The Tuxedo :D i got Hitch as well :] why Jackie Chan movies? umm... cos most of them are not serious? heehee im so dim :x Shanghai Knights wasn't too bad. it reminded me a little of the Singapore accent, courtesy of Fann Wong who plays Jackie Chan's sister. yeah her acting's pretty good actually, didnt know that... The Tuxedo was funny, but i didnt find it as entertaining as Shanghai Knights, somehow. yet to watch Hitch :x
im not going to say much about cuteoverload.com. just click on the link and check it out yourself! it covers so many animals, from the common ones like kittens, puppies and hamsters, to the more unusual ones like giraffes, red pandas and beluga whales! so what are you waiting for? need some cheering up? go to cuteoverload.com now!! :D
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ladies only!
omg periods.how many ladies out there dread their periods? im pretty sure lots of you do (unless you're really sexually active then it might be something you look forward to :] unless you want to have a baby...) so yeah i got mine today (pfft...), and boy did it put me into automatic sleep mode, like it always does -___-" why arh... i know some people get back pains during their periods, or cramps, headaches, nausea, pain in the breasts, and other stuff like that. i've always wondered why. cramps and PMS i can understand, but the rest? nah just dont make sense to me.
so anyways, i tried putting on (or in, whatever) a tampon, for like the 4th time in my life. the first 2 times i tried and failed, really badly. if i remember correctly, each time took like 40mins, and the tampon still wouldnt stay in. the 3rd time was with help from boyfriend. all 3 times hurt so hell bad, i have no clue why. damn it la, how come other girls can (younger than me some more), i cannot? buay song, so i tried again today.
it wasnt too bad i suppose, took me 20 bloody (pun!) minutes to get it in. felt kinda painful as well :( but not as bad as the first 3 times. maybe it's because the flow was much heavier. heavier flow = more fluid = more lubrication = easier to go in right? (oei stop thinking dirty!) so yeah. but the subsequent ones took around 10minutes. still long, but better :] but omg, pulling it out is disgusting. im not even gonna describe what a used tampon looks like *gags*
but the point is, YAY! i have finally learned how to use tampons! whoo! man, i feel like a woman! okay exaggeration there. why would i need to learn how to use tampons in order to feel like a woman right? but hey, bye bye to gross sticky pad days! whee! dry, happy periods, here i come! you scare me no more :D *goes hyperly insane*
hmmm what else... oh yeah it was SO nice and warm this weekend! wished we had sort of an "indian summer" day every week :] yes i miss the Singaporean climate can? :p i hate being cold, and having noone to hug :/
yupyup that's all the crap for today! hope all had a happy thanksgiving (better still if turkeyless), and ugh, back to school we go...
p.s: OMG OMG OMG. next friday is a PA day!!! can you scream HAPPYYYYYYYY with me? :D 2 short weeks in a row! whoo! and i might cover the Canadian elections as well, though i didnt vote despite the fact that i am indeed elligible to do so :] dont wanna vote for the wrong party and end up being responsible for the potential screw-up of this country. it's the guilt feeling you know? but i am waiting for the 3rd and final US presidential debate! can someone tell me when it'll be? really excited for some reason...
p.p.s: i shall end off with another list of needs and to-gets!
1) learn how to put on fake eyelashes! (MUST)
2) get a job. either at Timmies or some place near my house.
3) find the book for English ISU. (dieeeeeee)
4) find a petshop that sells turtles! (or terrapins, to be more precise. red-eared sliders!)
5) focus more on studies! must get out of slack cycle!
6) find this camera! then get it! :DDDD lalala~~
7) learn to give meself manicures! improve current social life!
tatas! till the next post! :]
XOXO~Labels: cuteoverload.com, ladies only, love, Niagara Falls, randominity, teenage life
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Why
Saturday, September 27, 20083:03 PM
Why do you cry
till your eyes swell and turn blood-red,
When he doesn't bother?
Why do you wait
for his call, keeping up all night,
When he doesn't bother?
Why do you get upset,
allowing your whole week to be ruined,
When he doesn't bother?
Why does your heart
ache, hurt and break,
When he doesn't bother?
Why do you write
about your disappointment, anger, sadness and frustration,
When he doesn't bother?Labels: angst, depressed, disappointment, frustration, literature, love, sadness
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thinking too much
Saturday, August 23, 20081:52 PM
was it wrong for me to ask you that? i think my reaons for asking you to consider that are pretty justified.
you are where you are now because of me: sleep-deprived, constantly missing someone, deprived of time to study, sleeping at odd hours of the night and waking up ridiculously early just so you can talk to me, limited to the computer to talk to me, etc.
is that what you truly want to do with your youth? become sleep-deprived, msn-addicted, just because of me? IS THIS WHAT YOU REALLY WANT FOR THE NEXT 2 YEARS?
i feel guilty, and responsible. how can i allow myself to interrupt with your well-being as a person? im supposed to make sure that i give you the best i can in this replationship, and all you get is the above mentioned??? plus my temper tantrums??????? it's too much, i already feel overwhelmed typing this down, how on earth is it for you?
i feel bad for putting you in this situation, when you could be doing so much more rather than all that i listed above. dont get me wrong when i asked u to consider that idea; i was honestly thinking of your well-being. and people have this tendency to either underestimate or overestimate their current well-being, it's never accurate.
im speaking very honestly and earnestly when i tell you it's not your fault at all, i just really feel that i am pulling you down when you could be making a lot more progress. i dont want you to plunge into depression too; it's hard to imagine 2 people getting together as a couple. well for me la, cos my imagination is so limited :x
i know you dont want to, but maybe keep this as a consideration at the sidelines. you can say that it's the anger or depression talking, but they're a part of me, so it's me speaking. and im not doing this for self-justification, but more of a reasoning to get you somewhere much better.Labels: confusion, depressed, frustration, love
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Borne of Boredom
Monday, August 18, 20084:34 PM
hello! my name is Jerlyne, and i am bored! so, i shall enterain myself. creds go to http://www.boardofwisdom.com/ :D read on, you may find something interesting or appealing to yourself here :] i picked these out on a topic common to all: LOVE ❤
We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
- Sam Keen, from To Love and Be Loved
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A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a deserted road on a motorcycle.
Girl: Slow down, we're going too fast. I'm scared! And I don't want anything to happen.
Guy: Come on, don't worry. I know what I'm doing. You're having fun right?
Girl: NO...please stop. I'm really scared.
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: I LOVE YOU! Now please slow down.
Guy: Give me a hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you help me out here? Will you take my helmet off of me and put it on you? It's bugging me.
In the paper the next day: A motorcycle has crashed into a building due to break failure. Two people found, but only one survived.
The Truth is: That halfway down the road the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want the girl to know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug him for one last time. Then he had her wear his helmet so she would live, even though it meant that he would die.
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"The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in."
-Unknown
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"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "Thats her!"....
- Unknown (Website)
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(i think my boyfriend would really click with this one... haha =x)
When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you.
When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you.
When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.
-Unknown
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Love is a slow kiss goodnight; it's anticipation.
Love is flirting ourtageously and still remembering that the person at your side is not obligated to do anything; it's respect.
Love is an imperfection in yourself not bothering you; it's acceptance.
Love is passing up an opportunity because the time isn't right yet; it's patience.
Love is a back massage that starts above the hairline and ends around the insoles; it's exploration.
Love does not have to say, "Let's make love," because you know what the other person wants; it understands.
Love is being given an honest chance to say no when you thought you were committed; it's consideration.
Love is both of you remembering protection; it's responsibility.
Love is saying the perfect phrase to make a solemn embrace dissolve into giggles; it's humor.
Love is being told "Stop and I'll kill you"; it's desire.
Love is reviewing the damge to your living room and realizing personal effects are strewn in a clockwise pattern from the front door the to bedroom; it's abandonment.
Love is seeing what your love really looks like for the first time; it's truth.
Love is knowing what time it is and not caring; it's joy.
Love is the arms around you tightening their embrace; it's ecstasy.
Love is seeing a new side of a person you thought you knew; it's renewal.
Love is telling a person if you have to leave, you will let them sleep, and being told they would rather be woken; it's tenderness.
Love is waking up to find the subject of the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder; it's where fantasy meets reality.
Love is being there to wake your lover slowly; it's sensuousness.
Love belatedly knows why you bothered to buy a queen-sized bed three years ago; it's practicality.
Love is two people only taking up a third of a queen-sized bed; it's closeness.
Love knows you gave the extra set of keys to your apartment to the right person; it's trust.
Love is saying good-bye and knowing you will be back by mutual consent; it's faith.
Love is stretching your arms and discovering the real meaning of the word "sore"; it's a lesson in human frailty.
Love is opening your medicine cabinet finding your tube of toothpaste turned into a pretzel; it's adaptation.
Love is sitting at the window, looking out and remembering who you were with the night before; it's reflection.
Love is hearing the weather forecast for a winter storm and wishing you could spend it in bed with your lover; it's loneliness.
Love is stories that will never be told; it's personal.
-Unknown
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Everyone in life is gonna hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain.
-Erica Baican
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A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (absolute wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
Nikka - age 6 (a very enlightened scholar here...)
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6 (kinda makes me inclined to wonder what the hell went wrong with my childhood)
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4 (aww the beauty of innocence and naiveness)
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
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and this is for those who plan on impressing their dearly beloved/crush with like, a zillion and one languages. no, i do not have a zillion and one languages (eh hello, this planet only has like over 600+ languages okay, how the ding dong can i come up with a zillion?), but i do have right around 110 languages, if that satisfies you. and since this is the longest entry, THIS SHALL BE THE LAST. for this post i mean haha :] enjoyeth!
English - I love you (if you dont know this something is wrong... do you even understand my blog???)
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a (or it could be Ngo oiy ley. i dunno, that's how I say it.)
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Haeyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay (if you even consider this a language)
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe
there you go, 110 ways (not really languages la really) to expresseth thy deepest feelings for thy lovedth one. (did anyone bother to count? haha...)
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add on
Monday, July 16, 20074:25 AM
oh yeah i forgot to add something: i'd really love to thank grandpa for being to patient with me the night my parents gave the fish away. i think i kinda snapped, but he was really patient with me and all, despite me going a lil nuts. so here's to you grandpa; thanks =]
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